Unbelief is refusing to trust God and believe His love will lead you to the paths of righteousness and the fulfillment of your desires when it will best benefit His kingdom and when you will best be able to enjoy it (2 Chron 20:20). Once Unbelief enters your heart, it then leads to pride.

Pride is taking self-initiative to do something about one's problems, needs or frustrations, rather than waiting for Jesus' initiative through the Holy Spirit. It centers in the word I (See Romans 7; Ps 27:14, 138:8; Is 41:10). When a person is walking in pride he cannot resist lust.

Lust is since, now, one does not believe that Jesus loves them enough to give them the right answer concerning their problems, needs, and frustrations when the time is right and it is best, it leads to the logical conclusion that He will also not fulfill one's desires either when it is the right time and best. The end result is now an angry attempt to fulfill one's lust and desires also. Paul states in Romans 1:28-32 about a person who stops acknowledging Jesus in their thoughts and ways and submitting to His counsel concerning those thoughts and ways,

"And just as they did not see fit to acknowledge God any longer, God gave them over to a depraved mind, to do those things which are not proper, being filled with all unrighteousness, wickedness, greed, evil; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, malice; they are gossips, slanders, haters of God, insolent, arrogant, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, without understanding untrustworthy, unloving, unmerciful; and although they know the ordinance of God, that those who practice such things are worthy of death, they not only do the same, but also give hearty approval to those who practice them."

Whenever you question Jesus' love and allow fear to take control of you, the spiritual pattern described above will always result. It is an absolute spiritual law. Of course confession of known sin and repenting to only act and speak out of Jesus' initiative will as quickly stop the pattern.

Once the choice is made to trust in Jesus to fulfill our desires, we are then free to serve Him with a whole heart; then when the enemy does come and attack, as he surely will, we can then say with our lips, I don't care what is going through my head I choose to believe what the Bible says and that is that God loves me and will accomplish what concerns me in His time (Jeremiah 31:3, Psalm 138:8).

Jesus says in John 12:26 that where He is, there shall His servant also be. "If anyone serves Me, let him follow Me; and where I am, there shall my servant also be; if anyone serves Me, the Father will honor him." Because you have acknowledged Jesus in your schedule and life, if you want to be where Jesus is in your life, He will be where you are supposed to be in your life and in your use of time.

Walking in the Spirit, then, and being Jesus-dependent as related to fear, is restraining ourselves from making decisions motivated out of fear, and instead waiting for Jesus’ clear counsel which will come with the Holy Spirit of love that we will recognize as being just that, Jesus love (2 Chron 12:14, John 14:18, Gal 5:22-23).

When Jesus calls us to do evangelism in a certain way and place, many times, due to the mundaneness of life, our feelings will not be involved. When Jesus called me to go to Hawaii to preach the Gospel several years ago we had a very heavy schedule. We were up at 6:00 A.M. and to bed at 1:00 A.M. many nights. I felt anything but joyful. I was basically num. A year after we came back from Hawaii, though, a man I had ministered to in Hawaii was now in a full time Gospel ministry. When he came to visit us at our church in California, he told me he was in full time ministry because the presence and commitment of Jesus through my life came through so strongly to him in my presence that he prayed, "Jesus, I want to be as committed to You and serve you as this man is." You can never judge the fruitfulness of your work in Evangelism based on your feelings.

For years Jesus has called me to witness on the streets using Evangelism tracts. I do not always see great fruit on the field, but periodically someone will walk up to me in church and say, "Do you remember me? You shared an Evangelism tract with me five years ago. I thought about it for a couple of months, pulled the book out of my desk, reread it and gave my life to Jesus. I have been walking with him ever since."

Three and a half years ago at this writing the Lord led me to come back to Tulsa because He wanted me to do further study and research and to update these textbooks as I am doing right this minute. Just before He led me to do this, I was in Fresno California doing intensive Evangelism with College students and on the streets. I had weekly gone out on college campuses to share the Gospel at least five times a week. I led at least one person to Christ a week, but at the end of the Fall semester and at the beginning of the Spring semester the Lord spoke to me in my heart and told me, "It is time for a harvest." The next week I led six people to Jesus Christ.

Obedience glorifies Jesus and brings men and women to a saving knowledge of who He is. Once Jesus establishes you in your ministry work with the confirming fruits of the Holy Spirit of Love, joy, and peace, no longer depend on them, but continue steadfastly to serve Jesus and walk in His will in the place He has put you regardless of how you feel until He tells you to do otherwise and know by faith that what you are doing is meaningful and is bearing fruit for Jesus whether it is always visible to you or not.

"Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your toil is not in vain in the Lord." (1 Cor 15:58)

"Let us not lose heart in doing good for in due time we shall reap, if we do not grow weary." (Gal 6:9)